The Six of Us

I can do two more days.  Not like I have a choice.  Lee and the kids are already thinking of all the fun they are going to have with out me.  AT work today several of my co-workers commented they have never been on a vacation without their spouse.  They think Lee and I are so weird that we take vacations without each other and with out the kids.  I guess it is just how I grew up and it was one of the things I Incorporated into my life when I became an adult.  Besides I was taking weekend trips to Seattle long before I met and married Lee so it would be strange if they stopped.  I am really frustrated with things right now so I think a break will be good. 

For several reasons I feel the need to defend my decision to send my children to public school.   Somebody implied that I did not do my research and I did not pray about the decision.  Both of which are false.  We feel at this point in time our children need to be in school.  We are capable of homeschooling.  However, it isn't where our kids need to be.  Jake has done very well in school.  It has helped him a great deal in being able to control his emotions.  He learned how to make friends.  He has become more outgoing and more creative.   Victoria has learned so much in the past few days. She can not wait to go back to school.  She is coming out of shell and making friends.  Do I think that my children will be exposed to things which may not be in line with what we teach at home?  Yup. However they are exposed to that by being exposed to that through family and friends.  The majority of people I know who h...

What a week!!!  The kids are really loving school this year.  Victoria is disappointed she has to wait five days to go back.  Both kids are going through identity crisis and have decided to change their names.  Which is funny to me. Our garage sale was postponed due to a family emergency.  So now we are aiming for the tenth which will give us more time to get more stuff both from our house and my parents'. I am so looking forward to my trip Saturday morning.  A full weekend kid free.  Well my kids free. Jake started soccer and I think it will be great this season.  Victoria doesn't start dance until after Labor Day which has been nice to have a couple of week to adjust to school schedule before adding weekly dance practice.  She will be tapping this year so we went and tried on some tap shoes and she was super excited. I really need to get some pictures in here.  

12 years ago today I met Lee's extended family.  It was at wedding.  The couple is no longer married which doesn't really matter.  For a moment today I stopped and thought about that day.  The day when Lee's aunt yelled at me although she never met me before.  I thought about the couple who was married and had their whole lives in front of them.  I thought about how quickly life can change direction.  I thought about meeting Lee's cousin's wife (now ex) and how after that encounter Lee mentioned his family was like the mob.  I have pondered that over and over through out the years.  It is true in more ways then one.  Now that I have been a part of the family for over a decade I realize they are like the mob but once you are in you are in.  I have grown to adore the family.  I love how fun they are I love how truly generous they are.  I love how when push comes to shove I know most of them would be there for me.  ...

Today is going to be slow.  I can already tell due to the census numbers.   I wish it was busier then I would not feel so guilty about being away from the kids.  Once again Lee is taking them to church with out me.  But we knew when I accepted this job there may be Sundays I would need to work.  That is the thing about hospitals they are 24/7.  I have been able to get out of it until a few months ago.  School starts on Wednesday.  It is hard to get over the fact both kids will be in school.  What happened to my little six and seven pound babies.  We will meet the kids' teachers on Tuesday night and then follow it up with Super Salad.  Wednesday I will take the kids to school and then I will pick Victoria up from school.  Jake said that he wanted to ride the bus home.  Since he is now a "grader" he will have all sorts of privileges he did not get last year.  Like riding the bus the first week, using the tee...

I am at the hospital for another 20 minutes.  It was a really slow day.  I am pretty sure Saturday will be choas.  They usually are.  Sundays are 50-50 shot of pure choas or pure boredom.  Things at work at an all time low.  There have been several decsions made that impact employees in a negative way.  But now I am not sure I will be able to leave.  I am thinking picking up another part time job would be better at least for another year.  I am hoping my degree posts soon so that I can apply for a very specific job.  I just got done working out with Boot Camp Biggest Loser Style.  I am  feeling under the weather so I got worn out much quicker then I thought I would have.   I am hoping to lose some weight or at least tone up.  Lee is running a marathon in October and although I will not be running with him I want to get in shape as well. We went to sushi with Lee's cousins it was great.  Lee's cousin bought a ...

I agreed to work at the hospital three shifts this week.  Which means about 70 hours of work from Monday to Sunday.  I did it for two reasons  1) we need the money and 2) I love working there.  By picking up these two shifts I will be half way to paying off our bank loan.  Then I am going to start working on our a  credit card that has been driving me batty.  Student loans are something that we will take care of in the far off future.  Reason being mine may be taken care of depending on where I end up working. Somewhere in the middle of that we have some medical bills and a smaller credit card. We decided this week we are not going to Hawaii. Instead we are going to visit Lee's brother and family.  I think the kids will have much more fun with their cousins then chilling on the beach.  I am still trying to work out the details.  I am not looking forward to work this week.  There will be a huge announcement made tomorrow and...

So I have mentioned before that I am going through a struggle. I really feel as though there is nobody in real life who I can talk to about it.  So I go to online forums which help somewhat.  I am feeling better about where things are going. Lee's cousin said something this week which really struck me.  She didn't even know it and probably never will.  She said if X is true then Y has to be true as well.  When I mentioned that there was such a rocky history and so many problems.  She said there is problems right now.  But once again we have to move past it.  We have to be united.  The problems I feel as though perfection is expected and when it isn't achieved then I struggle.  Since I can not be perfect maybe I should quit right now.  I am getting rid of tons of stuff.  Lee wants a garage sale on the 27th so I have a few weeks to declutter. We have mostly baby and kid stuff. Plus a kitchen table and maybe some dishes. Lee and...

We had quite the nine days in Utah.  Lagoon and Bear Lake and lots of time with cousins.  It was so amazing and relaxing.  I was watching Lee with his cousins and feeling a bit jealous that I never had that relationship with my cousins.    At Bear Lake there were ten kids all nine and under.  I usually hate camping but it was great.  Lee's cousins go every year and we are considering making it an annual trip as well.  Now we are buried in dirty laundry that smells like a camp fire.  I am now back to decluttering and spend today working on the kids dressers.  Tomorrow we will finish all the dressers (excluding Lee's) Life is good.  I work 60 hours this week and I really would rather just work the 20 at the hospital and not CPS.  I applied for a new job. We will see how it works out.  I have started looking for ways to cut back.  We have one debt that is driving me insane.  I need to get rid of it.  The...