The Six of Us

Yesterday was  tough day today was good I just may win this battle after all.  Crossing my fingers this weekend goes the way I want. So many thoughts and emotions right now.  Lots of tears yesterday.  Surviving some days just barely.  Don't care what you say.  I do what is best for me.  

We always want to wait for that perfect timing.  Things are too busy right now.  We will take that family vacation when we have more money more time.  We will apply for the new job when we are secure in ours.  Waiting.  But it comes down to there is no time like right now.  People die everyday.  We need to do what we want to do today, not tomorrow.  There is time if you find the time.  There may not be time when the kids are older.  So do it now!  Go visit grandparents now.  Send an I love you now.  Because nobody is promised tomorrow. Don't look back with regrets look back with fondness that you did what you did at the time. So many things that I wish I hadn't put off.  That being said I am going to put off going back to school for another year. :)   There are some online classes I take free.  I don't want to ever stop learning something new.  There are some classes I am going to take through the city this fall or maybe the summer.  I want to learn how to use my camer

Doing my taxes makes me miss my dad.  My healthy dad.  The one that did my taxes for me since I was 15.  Had a dream about him.  It wasn't until I was telling somebody about it that it made sense.  I really think it was more then a dream.   Crying now.  The End!

Spring Break officially ended yesterday and the kids go back to school Monday.  I am going to miss them.  The cabin was nice and semi-relaxing. Way more snow then I thought there would be  After that trip I am debating taking all four kids to Seattle in June.  I may just fly up solo in May.  So many decisions. I have decided to give notice at work on Monday.  I spoke to HR yesterday and she won't be shocked neither will my supervisor.  I am just so ready to move on. but it is hard after a decade. My friends have been supportive although we all know that in a year I want to be back to working.  I just need to leave the state and find something that isn't so draining on the soul. Jakes first Lacrosse game is Monday.  But the weather is going to be bad.  Uggg.,..Me with the two little boys trying to watch the game does not sound like fun. Hoping the sun comes out soon and stays for a while. Victoria's birthday is next week and she will have a four day celebration.  :) 

I just noticed that I had written three posts that in ever published.  Short update my kids are amazing. Still adjusting to four.  Lacrosse is so much fun to watch one month left.  Seven weeks left until dance recital and last day of school., still trying to plan a family vacation.  I am pretty sure Yellowstone is out and we are looking at the Oregon coast.  Summer is filling up fast some things I am looking forward to more then others. Luke is smiling more and crying less.  I am taking a class and I got a 97% on my presentation.  I now need to do well on my final paper which is due on Saturday.  I have to testify on Tuesday crossing my fingers the ,other backs out and I don't need to.  Garage sale Memorial Day weekend so I am getting rid of lots.  What doesn't sell will go to goodwill. Love getting rid of stuff. Pics on camara that I need to download. Feeling the need to justify every decision i do to family.  Some family members don't like some of the decisions we are