The Six of Us

When I was cleaning today I stumbled on to my dad's bucket list.  He had clearly written after he had gotten sick as his hand writing was super shaky.  What was on the bucket list?   Sell the car, finish the bathroom, complete the taxes  etc.... I wasn't surprised that is what Dad wrote.  He got through the first page of two pages in a small note book. The end was so hard on my Dad.  But he tried to make things as easy on my mom as possible. He got half there.  Well more then that.  Because he worked so hard and was so smart with money for so many years he was able to leave my mom financial comfortable. For that I am grateful. I stsrted this post a few months ago when we were in the middle of packing and cleaning.  Today we closed the doors and said good bye to the house.  Now it belongs to somebody else.  Somebody who is very excited about it.  Their dream come true.  I am glad my mom is moving on to a perfect place for her.  But it is hard.  Hard my kids won't be goi

  I had a situation at work where I was fighting against the system.  In the end it appears I lost.  There was nothing more I could do for this patient.  But maybe something will change for another patient.  so maybe I didn't lose after all.  But maybe I should have keep fighting against injustice.  After all that is in my oath.  Some times the "system" seems bigger then we are and there is no use trying to change it.  Whether it is church or work place or the kids' school.  But sometimes it takes just one person to change it.  Sometimes it is that one person who is able to break down the walls that have been standing for a while, despite the fact that nobody else could.  The last few days have been overwhelming.  I am ready to file bankruptcy run off to the Bahamas and call it day. But I would probably miss Lee and the  kids after a few hours.  But instead I will move through it.  I will be grateful it wasn't worse and hope next week is better. Hoping next

Some things are going well some things not so much.  Such is life.  I am working at the behavioral health today.   The last week has been so crazy busy.  I took the kids to the cabin for several days.  Came home Wednesday and then worked Thursday and Friday.  Jake left for overnight scout trip tonight (His first one).  Getting him ready last night and out the door this morning was insane but we got it done and I am sure he will have lots of fun.  Lee is going to go up for the night.  So it will be me and the little boys and Victoria.  Victoria still isn't home.  We left her at the cabin to help my mom clean the cabin.  Sounds like they had a blast.  Jake will be going back up before the 1st to help again.  Just lots of little stuff that take up time. Looks like we decided to refinance the house.  Which has been a lot of stress for me but in the end it will be the best thing.  But I don't know where to start. We are going to go talk to a loan officer at our credit union next w