The Six of Us

Here is what we have been up to for the past couple of weekends,  Jake had his first soccer game.  Shawn came to visit.  Lee got a new RC truck that he loves and so do the kids.  They spend the weekend chasing the truck which totally wore them out.  We did some gardening.  Victoria and I went to Weiser to a baptism of one of my previous foster kids.  It was so great to see the family again.  I really miss seeing them on a monthly basis.  We played newspaper tag with Shawn and Demitri. Grandma Gina and Grandpa Don stopped by for a little while on their way home.  Oh yea and the primary had a bug day where the kids dressed up like bugs.  Victoria was a butterfly and Jake was a bee.  I  have four more days left of the semester.  Lee is in Kamiah this week to spend some time with Shawn before basic as well as some other things. 

This evening I was talking to Lee telling him I really wanted something.  He has been listening to me say I really really want this something for over a year now.  As we discussed all the pros and cons about our family getting this thing I really wanted I became aware of the cons that I had not been so aware of before.  I think that with so many things we want them but failed to notice all the diffculty that will be caused by bringing it in to your life.  Such as a bigger house or a pet or a college degree.  All of these things can bring you joy but will also bring a great deal of hard work along with them.  For right now I will postpone getting what I really really want and maybe I will never get it,  but for now I am okay with that for now I look forward for another day with what I have and not worry about those things I don't. 

I hate the fact that somebody else has to take care of kids because I am sick.  Not only do I hate being sick but also that somebody else has to take over my job of the kids and the house.  Okay well nobody has taken over the house.  School is at a stand still and I have no idea what I did at work yesterday.  I do know I had court and the judge wants one of the kids adopted by June 3rd before I go back in front of him.  But at this point the adoption is up to the foster parents and not up to me.  They have some thing they need to do but have to do so we are waiting and waiting.  I could have this thing done by now.  I did get invited to the baptisim of one of the little girls on my case load.  The family is amazing and I think I am going to go.  I have to feel better by tomorrow because it is Jakes first soccer game and they have a primary party at 3 where all the kids are going to dress up like bugs.  At 4:30 they are going to have a bug parade.  The kids are singing on Sunday in chur

It seems that sickness has just raced through out house.  Victoria got it first Wednesday night and she had it the worst and then Jake got sick and then Lee is now feeling it.  I feel tired and worn out but it is hard to tell if it is stress or actual illness.  So now I am sitting here watching Motherhood with Uma and Minnie Driver.  It is good so far although it could change at any moment. I have a love hate relationship with day light savings.  I love the summer nights where the sun doesn't go down until 10 at night.  But the Sunday that the time changes is so hard.  It takes me at a week to adjust to the change.  Plus we have nine o'clock church so that is like eight o'clock.  We can't skip because we have to teach the four year olds.  Plus I am not so sure that it is such a great reason anyway.  Okay the movie isn't great but not horrible.

So the in-laws flew to Hawaii for the weekend and we graciously offered to babysit.  Of course the one day I had it all to myself it rained.  Victoria kept saying. "This is the coolest car ever."

It is official, I am now a soccer mom.  Jake started soccer tonight and he really enjoyed himself. Victoria and I froze.   He was really nervous at first but after about one minute he warmed up.  His coaches have far more patience then I do.  The league he belongs to is sponsored by the Nazarene church.  So after every practice they read a scripture to the kids.  The first game is towards the the end of the month.  I really think this will help Jake get ready for kindergarten. 

Tonight I went to a fundraiser for a local crisis pregnancy center.  I was invited because one of my previous foster parents was a speaker who spoke about the adoption of her son.  Trust me it all tied together.  I laughed and I cried and was so inspired.  I left the civic center with such a warm fuzzy feeling.  It honestly has been a while since I have felt like that.  The whole thing was about how God guides us to be in situations and places because he knows there is something bigger.  My foster parents had been trying for over eight years to have a baby and then because of one five minute meeting their lives were changed for ever.  There are so many times in my life that I can now see why I was lead to be somewhere or to do something that changed my life for the better.  Of course not every five minute meeting leads to parenthood.  We just need to trust God and trust ourselves. Life is good and I have a three day weekend and a ton of homework.