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leaving (again) and selling

So I have mentioned before that I am going through a struggle. I really feel as though there is nobody in real life who I can talk to about it.  So I go to online forums which help somewhat.  I am feeling better about where things are going. Lee's cousin said something this week which really struck me.  She didn't even know it and probably never will.  She said if X is true then Y has to be true as well.  When I mentioned that there was such a rocky history and so many problems.  She said there is problems right now.  But once again we have to move past it.  We have to be united.  The problems I feel as though perfection is expected and when it isn't achieved then I struggle.  Since I can not be perfect maybe I should quit right now. 

I am getting rid of tons of stuff.  Lee wants a garage sale on the 27th so I have a few weeks to declutter. We have mostly baby and kid stuff. Plus a kitchen table and maybe some dishes. Lee and I have very different ideas on the sale.  Oh well I am thinking it may be our last garage sale.  It is worth a shot right? 

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