The Six of Us

Cancer sucks.  The End!

I have given a lot of thought to this post. Andrew John Pitcher was born way too early in the morning on August 21st.  He is such a great baby.  As were both of my other kids for the most part.  I knew when I found out I was pregnant I wanted to have the baby on the 21st.  My official due date was sometime between the 17th and 20th.  I had scheduled an induction for the 21st but it wasn't necessary.  My other two children came 7-10 days early and I knew this one would be different.  Labor went quick and recovery has been a breeze. The weirdest thing is being able to eat with out having to worry about throwing up.  Andrew is way different in so many ways.  After the four year roller coaster to get him here I think both Lee and I feel like he is such a gift.  I appreciate every moment I get with him.  Maybe too it is because I am older and more experienced at the whole parenting thing. Today is the first day it will be just me and Andrew.  We have had company in one form or anoth

I am shocked to find myself still pregnant.  I have been having "signs" for a week now and still no baby.  Which is good because I really wanted to go to a party tonight.  The baby will be induced on Tuesday if he doesn't make a grand entrance by then.  I know lots of people have strong feelings about inducing I know that I do.  Plus the funny thing is if it wasn't for this one thing then I would not be inducing.  Although I am huge and it hurts to walk and I hate waking up every night at two to throw up I am really not in a hurry to get the baby out. I know it seems weird but it makes sense to Lee and I and that is all that matters. Jake has his football jamboree today.  He said he was worried I would go into labor there.  I told him it would be great because BSU is just a few blocks from the hospital which is a few blocks from my sister's house.  All will be good.  Today is scheduled to be be busy.  We have a clothing swap this morning, jamboree this afterno

I am feeling suddenly overwhelmed.  The doctor thinks the baby will be here before the weekend is over.  What?  Not sure if we are ready for this.  Although I am ready to be done waking up every night throwing up.   In the past 12 hours I have thrown up everything I ate.  Wondering if that is a good sign or bad.... Tomorrow is my last working day.  If I haven't gone into labor by then we will have the baby on Tuesday.  Although I am hoping the baby arrives by then.  Sunday would be good.  Wondering if we will ever agree on a name.  Four days max and we are still no closer to naming this child. 

Last night was one of those nights.  I got a text from Lee with not so great news while he was at work.  It was news we knew would be coming but it didn't really make it easier.  Then a text from a friend saying she had been in the hospital the past several days but she didn't want to stress me out so she didn't mention it until she was out.  I told her the stress could have induced labor and she should have told me.  :)  In five minutes I am heading to what I hope will be my final prenatal appointment.  It is so weird to me to go to my due date.  Both kids came at least a week early.  Clearly this child has other plans.  I really want to go to a party on Saturday.  So I am hoping this little boy can stay put for another 58 hours or so.  I have lots to write about from this past weekend but I am off to doctor and then work.  

I think Sunday would be a good day to have the baby. I could even be agreeable to Monday. However after that I would prefer to wait until the next Sunday or late Saturday. Yup now lets see if this baby agrees with his mom. This poor nameless baby. I could give a list of reasons why I want it that way such Jakes first game, a good bye party for a good friend, friends in town, parents on vacation and a clothing swap. Work is semi caught up so I feel good about going out at anytime. Doctor thinks Sunday would be good as well. So child of mind when are you going to arrive? I am thinking if the baby doesn't come this weekend I am only going to work a part week and then start my leave on Wednesday.  

So I have wanted to write this post for a week now and I think I am just going to do it.  A few weeks ago I had a really difficult week.  Pregnancy didn't help the situation.  But I reached out to two people and I got shut down both times.  One time the person asked I was was doing and I told them sad and lonely and they didn't even respond.   I am not even sure how to handle the situation.  I am so grateful for my parents who so often are there for me and my family.  I know I need to focus on the positive but when people who are family chose not be there for me I struggle. Especially when I reach out which is something hard for me to do. I have an amazing friend who really helped me out over the past few weeks.  In fact she will be there a few days/weeks after the baby arrives to help me.  She is so amazing!  Did I just say that? I didn't even bother to tell Lee because he will just tell me that is just how they are.  I know that is just how they are but it is still h