The Six of Us

So today Jake starts Lacrosse and Victoria starts Girls on the Run. Add to that all the crazy we already have going.  Scouts, Hunter Safety and Dance, home work and everything else we have going on.  It is going to be crazy until right before school lets out in May.  But some how it always works out.  I am hoping there is somebody on Jake's team I can car pool with.  I can drive the weeks I don't week and then other family can drive the other weeks.  As long as the weather is nice the boys can play in the park during Lacrosse practice. Which is the plan for tonight.  Not sure what the plan will be after that.  Just one day at a time.  I spend the morning today helping my mom clean and pack.  I had my first break down in front of my mom. Previously I had been able to wait and cry in the car.  I hate that she is selling I hate that we are packing up all my dad's stuff.  But it is for the best.  It really really is.  Although helping her clean make me want to declutter and

Lee went home teaching this afternoon.  Then he came home and shared what he had shared with his families (since we haven't seen our home teachers in over a year).  I am pretty sure that it was President Urchdorf who wrote the message.  He says that as a pilot he know there will be turbulence you can't avoid it.  But that you need to learn to deal with it.  Kind of like life.  There will be trials.  There will be years where husbands are unemployed and underemployed.  Kids will get ran over by a family member.  Mothers will sell the family home.  Parents die.  Kids will talk back.  There will be tough times. There will be some debt that seems overwhelming at times.  It is part of life.  But we can not obsess over them.  We must meet them head on deal with them and then move on.  Lee took the little boys out during sacrament meeting so I got to listen which is rare thing.  It was high counsel Sunday.  The last speaker was so good.  He spoke about service.  He was saying it is

The past few weeks have been tough for reasons I won't go into to.  I felt like I was doing everything right but it was all falling apart.  So I booked two trips and we still "have" to book our half marathon trip.  So we booked a weekend for skiing in McCall and then Victoria and I are going to Phoenix in April/May.  Kids voted to give up a trip over Spring Break in order to go skiing.   The trip to Phoenix is so expensive for just a weekend but it is Victoria's birthday present.  I am looking forward to getting away with the family in a few weeks.  Older kids and Lee will ski and the little boys and I will swim and hang out in the condo.  Lee is leaving next weekend for  Friday-Sunday and the weekend will be kind of crazy.  We are helping my mom for several hours on  Saturday although I don't know how much we will be with the little boys. The older kids should be helpful enough though.  I did make some life changes and I gave up Facebook as well as some other

I was dealing with some kid issues and trying to work out the preschool for next year when I was looking for advice from the mom's online group I belong to so I typed out this whole long post.  Then it hit me.  I had the answer.  I know what I am going to do now.  And just by typing it out I figured it out on my own.  (sort of).  I did text my BFF and asked her some thoughts and opinions. And then came to a conclusion.  I am really not sure why I am stressing about this.  I just don't want to fail my kids or myself.  Speaking of kids there was a few incidents with Jake this week.  First time he was partially at fault owned his role in the situation.  We got a phone call from one of the neighbor moms "tattling" on Jake.  She left out the part of the other child's (who wasn't her child) role in the situation.  Today it doesn't appear that Jake was at fault and even the other child said that.  However, no call from the mom who chose to make Jake out to the

This week has been so frustrating one thing after another.  Now it is 7:30 on a Friday night and I wish I was with my mom's group who is currently watching "Breakfast of Tiffany's" But instead I am sitting in a quiet house while Lee is off skiing with the older kids.  Ski Night at the school was tonight and it made more sense for Lee to go because well...he actually skis.  Lee has text me a few times and it didn't go quite as planned.  Two of the parents asked if Lee could "keep an eye" on their kids.  Well Lee said he feels like he is babysitting them.  I told him that wasn't the impression I got from the parents.  Work went better today and lots of stuff was explained to me and the other social worker said I was doing just fine.  Now that I know what I am doing. So one of the same parents who asked that we keep an eye on their daughter up at ski night them proceeded to tell me that her husband wanted to have a chat with Jake because Jake called

Thing were going okay and then they weren't and now I wonder if I made a horrible decision.  Maybe I did but that is no the point the point is I feel like I was set up to fail.  I am just so overwhelmed and I don't know what to do about it.  It just doesn't seem worth it at this point.  So on Friday I am going to back the BHU and get some more training because everything I did yesterday was wrong.  In my defense I was never trained on proper note writing.  I can do an assessment and I can run a group but clearly writing a note about what happened is too much for me to handle.  10.5 more months until I can quit.  But by that time I will either have been fired or I will figure out what I am doing and decide not quit.  I guess I should look at it as some extra hours but at the amount we are paying the babysitter and the amount of hours I will be working it will be close to a wash.  Lee said well you don't need that job anyway.  :)  Helpful!!!  Meanwhile I am stalking t

Some days I feel like writing lots.  Some days not so much.  Finally filed taxes I think this will be the last year of big refunds.  I have been claiming 1 and I just raised that to 6.  We are going to use the state refund to do a few small house projects and the federal refund will be for debt.  Fun times!!! Work is slow for me today but crazy busy for the ER.  BHU is still not ideal.  I am going to work as many hours as I can still at least until summer and then probably not work as much in order to stay home more the kids.  Not sure what I am going to do about preschool next year for Andrew.  I love the one day a week class he was in this year and was planning on putting Luke in the same class next year when Andrew moved up to "real" preschool.  But.... I am not sure I want Andrew in preschool three days a week and if I go with two days a week it is Tuesday/Thursday and one day a week is Wednesdays.  I know in a few years it won't matter.  But for now it does m

I have been totally honest about Duke being the hardest kid I have had.  He cried his whole first year.  But then suddenly he got better.  He still cries himself to sleep every night. But he is getting more huggy.  He didn't really like being held as a baby and now he will for about 1 minute.  He talks so much now and clear enough that I can understand him.  He knows what he wants and isn't afraid to go after it.  He is running and so active.  And although it is draining at times I am glad he is so busy.  Goals for this year are potty training and sleeping in a bed.  He will start preschool in the fall and I think it will be good for him.  He can finally be around other people and not cry the whole time I am gone. I love my Duke the Puke and I am so glad he has decided to stick around for a little while longer.