The Six of Us

Last night I was sitting in Target parking lot  with the realization just how unhealthy a relationship had become. I had done a pretty good job in the past month not reaching out  and needing validation and not trying to help.    But then out of the blue this person text me.  They weren’t real and it all was superficial and really felt like an  I know something you don’t” kind of deal.  . I text my best friend a book about how I needed counseling and how I needed to let go of this toxicity. She agreed  that counseling may help and that I did need to find a way to stop putting more effort into this then the other person.    Then she said by letting go of unhealthy relationships I could make room for new healthy ones.  I felt peace.  Today I was reading an article and a paragraph about always seeking out relationship and needing that validation was super unhealthy .  It went on to say that it was about me trying to prove I am worthy of this person.  God is trying to tell me something.

Here is the situation.  I was venting to a family member about how I was trying to find some information from a family member and I was totally ignored.  Their response was that I just need to be more flexiable.  I was hurt.  I needed somebody to mourn with me the fact that I needed to make plans.  I needed to book a (not cheap) hotel.  and waiting it made it less likely we could find something reasonabke.