The Six of Us

I am 25 weeks this week.  The reason this is significant is I have been dealing with Siatica for 15 weeks and I have 15 more.  I can do this.   I have been struggling emotionally and physically.  I haven't been to church except for twice in the past 15 weeks and nobody seems to even notice or care.   I got super far behind at work and I am not sure there is enough time to get done everything I need to.  The biggest issue is it hurts to sit for any more then a few minutes.   There are other things that I am struggling with but I guess that is enough whining for tonight 

It is amazing that in my fathers final few months or weeks or what ever he has left old friends are coming from all over to say final good byes.  This weekend my dad's best friend from high school is up from Phoenix.  In a few weeks a friend is coming out from the east coast.  My uncle has been here once every 7-10 days. My dad's friends from Montana Have come down.  People from old wards and old neighbors are stopping by.   My dad hasn't always been the most religious guy.  But he is always rooted for the underdog.  He has given time and money to so many people that I will probably not know all of them.  He is a good guy who worked hard.  Who in his final days has people coming to say good bye all because of a life well lived.   The longer I live the more I realize our ticket to heaven isn't how many Sundays we appeared in church or if we had a drink of coffee in occasion.  It is how we treat others.  People may argue and disagree but that is okay. 

Today was a crazy day. Lee went to my parents cabin yesterday and won't be gone until after midnight which was not the plan. We had early morning baseball games tha went really well.  I know Lee is disappointed he wasn't here.  But we both felt strongly that he needed to go. Lee and a friend gave me a blessing Thursday before he left.  I have been in so much pain lately I have been struggling to function.  Lee needs to work and has been working 50 hours a week. I am gettin farther and farther behind because it has been a struggle to sit and to stand and drive.  All parts of my job. So while I was hoping the blessing would jus take all the pain away bit instead it was more of it's okay the house isn't spotless and if not everything gets done.  Jake  told me he wants more siblings. No more 19 kids and counting for the kids :).  When I told him that when I was pregnant I wasn't a good mom for 9 months.  His comment was yea but it's only none months.

So my facebook feed was all a buzz with this quote from General Conference.  Which by the way is a quote from a book which now I want to read.  Anyway, I got in a discussion with some friends online.  We all had different takes on it.  But the one I likes best was about not doubting yourself.  I know I have some really tough challenges in front of me but I also have faith that I can do if.  Although more often then they should doubts creep in.  Doubts about my ability to do all I could do.  Why do we choose to beleive the doubts instead have faith in ourselves.   I struggled with some of the talks in general conference.  But overall I though if was great.  There are still two sessions we need to listen to.

13 years ago I married this 21 year old goofy guy.  I remeber asking my mom not that long ago why didn't anybody try to stop us.  Her comment was you were an adult.  My comment to that was yes but you didn't have to write the checks.  I still to this day think we were way too young and I am encouraging  my children to wait until they are older and more mature to get married.  Lee thinks differently as he does on so many things.  So what has 13 years brought us..... 1) We have lived in two different houses (3 if you count the few months we lived with my parents while we were building this one) 2) Seven pregnancies and three (almost four) amazing kids 3) Four college degrees 4) We have lost one parent and will lose another in the next few months 5) Lots of tears 6) Way more laughter 7) Three totalled out cars 8) Two motorcycles 9) Lots of Family Vacations 10) Countless Political disagreements Life has been good to us.  We have some how managed to keep our marriage