The Six of Us

I am so tired of being sick. This morning I threw up water. Half way through and I am so sick still. It just doesn't seem fair. Driving to Kamiah alone with the kids tomorrow. Here is hoping all goes well.

It is hard to explain today.  So many emotions.  I have so many co-workers going through so much and at work we are like a family of sorts.  But it is amazing how we all step up and help each other when things need to get done. The kids are enjoying spring break despite the rain.  They built a fort in Jake's room and are sleeping in it.  We got some yard work done between dinner and bed time.  Jake broke a shovel but ended up getting most of the plant we are ripping out of the front yard.  I have some great plans for our yard I am just not sure we will be able to get them done. 

We gave the kids the option of two places for this years family vacation.  We are going in October and it will be 4-5 days instead of the 10 from last year because this summer is too crazy to try and plan something.  Although Lee has said he does want to do a few weekends trip.  We are going to Silverwood in June so it isn't as though there won't be any vacations this summer.  Also the trip they picked is really based on the weather.  If the weather is bad we will go with plan B.  I love planning vacations.  I think family vacations are so important.  But since we will be gone over our weekend I need to find another weekend for a weekend away with just Lee and I.  Although it will probably be in November.  Maybe right before I head back to work.  In a week we are heading to Kamiah for a long weekend.  Hoping the weather will be nice so we can go 4-wheeling.  It is going to be a nice weekend.  The weather will be great.  There will be soccer and dinner with cousins (kid fr

Want to mess with the morale of your employees fired three of them in six months but don't say why.  That way your employees will constantly wonder if they are doing what the fired people did.  So frustrating.  I have been with CPS for almost seven years and more people have been fired in the past six months then the rest of the time I have been employed.  The other ones were clear firings and the team knew why.  Two out of the last three nobody knows why. 

For the first time in about six weeks I threw up in the middle of the day.  I throw up every morning.  I am hoping today was some sort of fluke.  Plus most days I take medication.  So I am sure that has something to do with helping. Soccer went well. Every kid on Jake's team made a goal.  Having an extra kid wasn't bad.  Logan is a great kid.  The kids were struggling this weekend.  They usually have their moments but this weekend they had more moments then normal.  They are great kids but I think me being sick is taking its toll on the family.  My good days are good and I get a ton done.  But then the bad days are bad.  This week is another busy week.  Watch week at dance, play tomorrow, birthday party for a relative on Saturday which we may or may not attend but we did get a babysitter just in case.  Even we don't go to the party we will still go out. We have started buying for the baby.  Hard to believe we are starting all over again. 

So there are few people we have announced the pregnancy to.  It is funny how they responded.  (to me anyway).  There was no question of how I was feeling or how I felt about the pregnancy.  I guess I assumed those would have been normal questions. But I guess what is normal to me is not normal to others.  18 weeks today.  On the fifth is our ultrasound.  It will be the fourth one.  Complications early on caused concern so we have had several pictures of our baby.  Work was super crazy this week.  I started doing some investigations which was good.  Stepping way out of my comfort zone.  We had an announcement today at work that we are getting raises.  It is frustrating because it is such a small amount.  But I am glad it is something. Soccer game tomorrow. Jake is so excited to be back to playing.  Here is hoping the rain holds off long enough for the game We have an extra child this weekend. I am sure I will one day figure out how one extra child means less work for me   Lee

Today was super overwhelming the first two hours.  My dad is officially jobless.  Then I got to my doctor appointment and despite my best efforts I am still losing weight.  The nurse practitioner is concerned at this point but I told her that I was feeling better and I really thought I was eating more.  So she bought it.  I also have to find another doctor.  It is great that my doctor isn't coming back for her but bad for me.  I really liked my last two doctors and to start over seems daunting. Then I came back to work to several emails and now I feel like I haven't been doing my new job correctly. We had to change our plans for Kamiah which I am hoping works out.  It means having to come back on Sunday and hopefully I can get the time off.  If not maybe just Lee and the kids will go. I am suppose to be working on this project for RS tomorrow night.  I don't want to.  

Victoria is home sick today and tomorrow.  She has been sitting on the couch watching Garfeild.  She isn't grouchy or whiny just zero energy.  The bad news is that Lee could not babysit today which means we lost out on that money.  Good news is I got to work a half day today and got a ton of housework done.  I wish I could work part time and spend more time at home.  Some of my online friends and I started FLY Lady (yes again) The house needs it.  This is week is the kitchen and I am going to start with the lazy susan.  I hope by writing it down then I will have some motivation.  Our accountant gave us the numbers on our tax return.  Half of what it was last year and the state still isn't done.  Here is hoping we don't owe them.  It is also pretty certain we won't be able to go to Disney Land in the fall like we were hoping. We are hoping to make to the beach next year.  Lee will get to go for a day this year and I am so jealous.  Well laundry is calling my name

I have that one person in my life who makes me a better person because they are a good person.  They are generous and kind and always willing to help me out when they can.  They cry with me and laugh with me and gossip with me.  I told her so last night and I don't even think she knew until I said it.  Then today she text me to say she was sending me a gift.  UGGGG...That was not the point of me telling her that.  Somebody was fired today at work.  That does horrible things to morale.  But she couldn't do her job.  The end!!!!  I got two things done at work that have been weighing on me.  So one more and then I should be on to a low stress job.