The Six of Us

So I was having a conversation with somebody about something that was really hard for me and they made me out to be the bad guy.  When I explained their perspective was off they came back with a whole different thing about the story they didn't like while criticizing me and telling me I need to take some responsibility.  This isn't my fault yet somehow I am dealing with the consequences.  Those who are my closest friends know the details and have been supportive.  Nobody else has even bothered to ask thereby assuming I am at fault.  It is overwhelming and sad when you realize people are making assumptions that aren't based in fact just based on their idea of what happened. I should know better this isn't the first time somebody has assumed something about me that wasn't true. But this time it seemed to hurt worse. 

One of my friends text me everything happens for a reason.  I so disagree.  Usually I can find some reason but there is no reason why my little Duke should have been pined under his grandmother's car.  I am still struggling with it.  I am not the only one.  He still won't put any real weight on his right foot.  Today was the first day with out meds. Scabs are falling off , right foot is still missing half the skin.    I had a revelation about what happened that night I feel like I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that Dukes grandparents on the other side were there.  I see it in my mind so vividly how they intervened.  It is crazy.  It isn't just something I made up in my mind but it is like I was there watching it happen. It has been a tough week emotionally but somehow life goes on.  We contacted our insurance who will be taking care of the medical portion of the bills. So glad I no longer have to worry about that.  We will right the other portion out later. I haven

1) Got the kids to the bus on time 2) Went back to bed 3) Felt guilty 4) Did two batches of wash 5) Ate Healthy Breakfast 6) Cleaned the walls in the kitchen 7) Texted Lee 100 (approximently) times about the car 8) Called the bank 9) Attempted to make the house payment 10) Text my SIL 11) Took the boys to the park to almost two hours 12) Helped Jake with homework 13) Picked up Victoria 14) Cleaned the stove and inside of oven 15) Made dinner 16) Swept the floor 17) Searched for jobs for Lee 18) Worked five hours it ended up being six 19) Ate unhealthy Lunch 20) Talked to Adult Protection 21) Cried about leaving the kids 22) Text my BFF 23) Talked to the service coordinator regarding Luke

Lee FSo last night I was chatting with my friend.  She was overwhelmed and had some stuff going on so I talked to Lee and he said why don't you go see her.  So today before I could talk myself out of it I booked a ticket for the first weekend in May.  I feel a little sad because next weekend I will be running in Utah and then I work the following weekend and then the next weekend I will be in Phoenix.  I won't feel sad once I am there I am sure.  I got of work over an hour later then scheduled and then driving home the car died.  Like no power no anything. So at 12:30 at night I had to call Lee to come get me but we couldn't leave the car where it was. So Lee called a friend.   Things I  greatful for : 1) Lee was still awake  2) car died close home  3) Our friend lives close and was more then willing to come to our rescue  4). Lee wasn't annoyed with the whole thing  Lee test drove a car today and said he likes it so after a mechanic checks it out and our credit union i