The Six of Us

I have decided to make 2015 about me and I am making goals all about me.  (sort of)  I have decided that I am not going to continue to put more effort into relationships then the other person. This will probably be the hardest goal of all.  I start training tonight for a half marathon which is going to be time consuming at least until April.  We are going to take some vacations. We already have four planned and I am sad that Lee will only be on half of those with us.   I am going to spend less time on the on the computer and my phone which I have already started doing.   I am also going to start menu planning saving more and reading more.  I have decided one nonfiction book a month.  I was going to say one fiction book in addition to the non fiction b but I haven't found a fiction book I have liked in a long time. Okay I found one that Lee and I are reading out loud right now.  So maybe just two nonfiction books.    I am going to stay on track with my cleaning/decluttering/lau

Lee has decided to start doing more job applications and since I often have free time at work I offered to help him.  It is so time consuming and  often feels like a big waste of time.  But I am fairly certain there is something better out there.  Right now we are counting our blessings that he doesn't "need" a job.  Right now it is almost 11 at night he is over helping a friend with his dryer and I just finished one application and I am working on another one.  There are pros and cons to him leaving where he is no matter where he ends up. 

This weekend was rough.  My BFF from high school's mom died on Saturday morning.  We had grown apart over the years but our moms had become super close.  I found out on facebook when I called my mom she said she had already heard.  I started to cry.  This woman and her husband were so amazing when my dad was ill.  They came over nearly every day he was in the hospital and after he got home.  Their family flew my parents to the cabin for one final visit before my dad died.  They sat and would talk to my dad even when he was so delusional.  I cried Jake cried.  My heart is breaking for the family.  It was sudden and then it wasn't.  So close to Christmas.  My mother said she just didn't know what she was going to do with out her.  Life will go on.  But I know from experience it goes on but it is never the same.  There is still this aching for the loved one.   My mom has been asked to not only pray at the service but to dress her friend as well.  I feel for my mom seems like s

What a week!  Next week will be even crazier and the craziness will just continue until the first of the year and then we will have a whole new set of crazy. Monday:  All four kids were home.  My mom borrowed Victoria and Jake and I were able to work on a project he had.  Lee worked super late and it was nine before he got home.  We attempted the first day of the 25 days of Christ total fail.  Although looking back I can see why.  Tuesday:  Jake came home in tears because the project he had done was done 95% wrong because he didn't follow directions so we had to start all over.  It was also dance day.  At least Lee was home by six.   We spend the evening redoing the project.  Andrew was super sick on Tuesday.  Eyes glazed over nearly five hour nap.  Super grouch only wanted to sit on the couch and watch Mickey.   Threw up in the evening after I took all four kids to Target before the throwing up.  We did get their ornaments for the year. Dinner was left overs. Wednesday: 

So I was going through our pictures for 2014 for our annual Christmas card,  I came across some that I had even forgotten I had taken.  Memories that somehow got sucked away into my brain between diaper changes and dance practice,  Our kids had a pretty great year,  and I was able to find one picture of all six of us that I had totally forgotten about from 4th of July.   I take a ton of pictures but I want to take even more.  I need to print them not just take them.  I think the older kids are old enough to have some pictures in their room and my plan is to buy them both camera;s before we head off on summer adventures. Speaking of memories Thanksgiving was tough,  I made it totally through without breaking down until we pulled out of the driveway and then it all was too much.  All of it was just too much.  We are blessed to be able to live near my siblings and mom.  Mom is really struggling this year.  We got the tree up but that is it.  Tomorrow I will adjust the branches and the