This evening I was talking to Lee telling him I really wanted something. He has been listening to me say I really really want this something for over a year now. As we discussed all the pros and cons about our family getting this thing I really wanted I became aware of the cons that I had not been so aware of before. I think that with so many things we want them but failed to notice all the diffculty that will be caused by bringing it in to your life. Such as a bigger house or a pet or a college degree. All of these things can bring you joy but will also bring a great deal of hard work along with them. For right now I will postpone getting what I really really want and maybe I will never get it, but for now I am okay with that for now I look forward for another day with what I have and not worry about those things I don't.
Right now I am feeling all the feels. We had such a great week with my nephew and Jake. The house is louder and has more enegy when all four kids are home. And our nephew is seriously one of favoriate people. He lets the boys hand on him and they just look up to him so muchd. So I am writting because I am not sure what else to do at this pount. I have been applying for a job(s) that I have been inspired to do for a long time. I have been really trying to to step upside of my comfort zone and apply for things that I know I can do although I have never done them before. I have been considering doing some writing and writing a book. I have no desire to be published I just want to be able to start being more creative . I have so many fears about so many things. Missy Kay turned 19 today and Andrew had his first tennis meet of the seaon. I am thankful for my people who show up to support and love us. There was this moment at the meet where one of the parents gave me haug aft...
so what did you want? You have to tell well not realy but if you want too! U knw there are so many thngs i want! but i don;t need!
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