This evening I was talking to Lee telling him I really wanted something. He has been listening to me say I really really want this something for over a year now. As we discussed all the pros and cons about our family getting this thing I really wanted I became aware of the cons that I had not been so aware of before. I think that with so many things we want them but failed to notice all the diffculty that will be caused by bringing it in to your life. Such as a bigger house or a pet or a college degree. All of these things can bring you joy but will also bring a great deal of hard work along with them. For right now I will postpone getting what I really really want and maybe I will never get it, but for now I am okay with that for now I look forward for another day with what I have and not worry about those things I don't.
This has been a tough week. I worked some extra hours which were only five hour shifts but were still were time away from the kids. Kids are at their breaking point and wether or not they know it they need schedules and some stablness. School starts Tuesday and comments about how people hope my kids dont kill their teachers with COVID is neither helpful or accurate. Plus we had a budget meeting after months of no meetings. In which we found out that we had once again over spent in August. Which could have been stopped if we would have known earlier in the month. I sent $1500 to student loans. Andrew turned eight yesterday and I am so thankful for him. He is become such a deep thinker and asks these amazing questions that I don't always have the answers to. The meds have helped slow him down but he is still crazy Andrew. We upped the medications and it was like he was on speed. He couldn't sleep and was kind of zombie like. Then there has been a few moments wher
so what did you want? You have to tell well not realy but if you want too! U knw there are so many thngs i want! but i don;t need!
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