This evening I was talking to Lee telling him I really wanted something. He has been listening to me say I really really want this something for over a year now. As we discussed all the pros and cons about our family getting this thing I really wanted I became aware of the cons that I had not been so aware of before. I think that with so many things we want them but failed to notice all the diffculty that will be caused by bringing it in to your life. Such as a bigger house or a pet or a college degree. All of these things can bring you joy but will also bring a great deal of hard work along with them. For right now I will postpone getting what I really really want and maybe I will never get it, but for now I am okay with that for now I look forward for another day with what I have and not worry about those things I don't.
L:ong story short I came across something that made we want to add back to this. Not sure why but hwere we go. Life is constantly chaning and I feel so mnuch surround bu death lately. Not diredctly although I fee like that is coming but more just heartbreak for so many around me. Yesterday Victoria quailfied for state. It was an answer to a prayer. I prayed she would qualify and felt strongly she would. As we left her away at the meet she was certain as were we that she hadn't qualified and then the clouds parted and she will be able to run. She told me she prayed that she would have a good last high school race. and her last race was not grea. There were tears. And rears when she called me to tell me she qualified. So rad trip to ther side of teh state next weekend Wednesday Jake is going through the temple. So many mixed feelings for so many reasons. I shouldn't expect people to show up but sometimes it is just so hard when my mom is the only "church...
so what did you want? You have to tell well not realy but if you want too! U knw there are so many thngs i want! but i don;t need!
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