This evening I was talking to Lee telling him I really wanted something. He has been listening to me say I really really want this something for over a year now. As we discussed all the pros and cons about our family getting this thing I really wanted I became aware of the cons that I had not been so aware of before. I think that with so many things we want them but failed to notice all the diffculty that will be caused by bringing it in to your life. Such as a bigger house or a pet or a college degree. All of these things can bring you joy but will also bring a great deal of hard work along with them. For right now I will postpone getting what I really really want and maybe I will never get it, but for now I am okay with that for now I look forward for another day with what I have and not worry about those things I don't.
Words can not expressed the range of emotions I am feeling at the moment. One week ago we had it all planned out. Then Covid happened. And the whole world was suddenly on hold. Kids had school Monday but then have been out for ten days and are scheduled to return on the 20th of April. However most people think that is unlikely. My heart is breaking for graduating seniors. We cancelled our trip to Zion which may have happened any way because it was calling for snow. I hope we will rise from this stronger but right now I feel like curling up in a ball and crying. Lee now has work at home options since we have not been put on "lockdown" at this point although several other areas and cities across the county including a few in Idaho have been. I try and look for the good. Healthy kids, good weather, lots of projects we put off being completed. But some moments it feels like we are missing on so much. We did church at ho...
so what did you want? You have to tell well not realy but if you want too! U knw there are so many thngs i want! but i don;t need!
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