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Triggers

On Sunday I was triggered by two seemingly different events.  One was a Facebook post and one a text to a wrong number But they triggered me big time.  Those triggers along with two back to back emotional days on BHU with a violent patient made me drained.  The rainy cold gray weather doesn't help either,  So even though I didn't really feel like it yesterday I went to the food pantry.  I was sad for how little food we had left.  I felt joy for all the people bringing in angel tree gifts to help some child they don't even know.  I was touched by the anonymous donation from somebody who donated what people need.  I am still feel emotionally drained but I feel like there is hope in all this crazy triggered emotionally week,

This week has been insanity.  Something every night and I am working the weekend.  I was in charge of the relief society Christmas party which went well.  Plus band and orchestra concerts and a race Saturday.

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