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Here we go again...

This summer was a tough one in many ways. Finances and time stopped us from doing several things I wanted to do with the kids.  There was about a month where I was severely depressed and would have thoughts of ending it all or running away or some mix of the two.  It was hard.  I was fine while I was out or working but at home I just wanted to check out and I did.  Kids watched too much TV and probably fought too much during that time. 

Tonight I am sad that the summer is ending.  We will be heading back to early mornings and cross country and more stress and less family time.

I am excited to see what this school year will bring.  There are so many changes in the horizon for both Lee and my careers. Some of the things will happen quickly and some will take more time.  But we have a plan we have a clear picture and for the most part we are on the same page with the same goals and we are helping each other reach those goals together.

We are blessed for sure.  Life is good and complicated.  Not sure what the school year will bring.  It will certainly bring more time alone for me. It should bring less debt. 


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