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Some days are just hard

Work was brutal today.  I had to walk out of the ER and cry for a minute.  It was tough.  And I get to go home to an empty house.  With nobody there.  It sucks.  I can't even call Lee after work because it may be too late. 

Lee took the kids up to his dad's.  He wanted to go for Father's Day but one thing after another and the trip never came together.  So when he found out he had the chance for a four day weekend even though I am working all weekend he thought it would be a great time to take the kids up north to see his dad.  It is perfect for them.  From the looks of the pictures they are having fun.  I love that they got to go.  Just disappointed I didn't get to go. 

Life is going well sort of.  Kids are happy and healthy and enjoying summer.  We truly are overwhelmingly blessed. 

Some stuff happened at the beginning of summer and it has been a struggle to resolve emotionally.  Not sure how it will end up.  I have been able to let go some things but not others.  I am not sure where that leaves me or us for that matter.  I have been kind of sort of trying but right now I just can't anymore.  Kind of one of those where do we go from here?  The answer to that is I am not sure. 

Lee and the kids will come home Thursday just in time for food and fireworks. 







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