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Set up to fail!

Thing were going okay and then they weren't and now I wonder if I made a horrible decision.  Maybe I did but that is no the point the point is I feel like I was set up to fail.  I am just so overwhelmed and I don't know what to do about it.  It just doesn't seem worth it at this point.  So on Friday I am going to back the BHU and get some more training because everything I did yesterday was wrong.  In my defense I was never trained on proper note writing.  I can do an assessment and I can run a group but clearly writing a note about what happened is too much for me to handle.  10.5 more months until I can quit.  But by that time I will either have been fired or I will figure out what I am doing and decide not quit.  I guess I should look at it as some extra hours but at the amount we are paying the babysitter and the amount of hours I will be working it will be close to a wash. 

Lee said well you don't need that job anyway.  :)  Helpful!!! 

Meanwhile I am stalking the IRS because that is what I do.  Waiting for my refund check.  Lee and I (via text) came up with the list of bills to pay off.  When I work at 5 I don't see much of him and he is so tired when I come home that most discussions happen via text. 

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