SO what have been up to. Lots of nothing COVID sent me into a huge mess of depression and anxiety that I have slowly been getting through thanks to medication. The medications have made me a much better mom and wife.
We spent a week with Lee's family at his family reunion last week. There was so many good fun times but there was also some frustration where Lee and I felt like we were the built in babysitters and people kept just leaving their children with us. I tried to be compassionate but sometimes it is hard. We are thankful for all the great memories we had, older kids got to go to Lagoon with their cousins which was fabulous despite snide comments about how much we make and what we can afford. We are thankful for Lee's brother and family hosting and always for the generosity of Lee's dad and Gina. And Lee's cousin took amazing pictures
Jake got his permit and overall isn't such a bad driver just inexperienced.
Marching band sort of kind of was cancelled. They are going to do a half time show but no marching. But for now cross country is a go but starting late.
High School will be a spilt schedule which will be different and they are going to make every effort to keep households together. I don;t envy teachers or counselors who are taking on teaching this year.
I am not doing well with unknown or limbo. But I feel strongly in 6 months we will be in a much better place with COVID and since we are already almost six months in ...WE CAN DO THIS.
I have been working so much which has been good and bad, Student loans are dropping at the rate of $2000-2500 a month but it has been draining and we haven't had to pay interest which may or may not last until the end of the year...It will last until at least October.
All in all COVID has more positve then negative. Lots more family time and more money. But I may feel much differently in six months. Much easier to enjoy being at home when we can get out and ride bikes every night.
L:ong story short I came across something that made we want to add back to this. Not sure why but hwere we go. Life is constantly chaning and I feel so mnuch surround bu death lately. Not diredctly although I fee like that is coming but more just heartbreak for so many around me. Yesterday Victoria quailfied for state. It was an answer to a prayer. I prayed she would qualify and felt strongly she would. As we left her away at the meet she was certain as were we that she hadn't qualified and then the clouds parted and she will be able to run. She told me she prayed that she would have a good last high school race. and her last race was not grea. There were tears. And rears when she called me to tell me she qualified. So rad trip to ther side of teh state next weekend Wednesday Jake is going through the temple. So many mixed feelings for so many reasons. I shouldn't expect people to show up but sometimes it is just so hard when my mom is the only "church...
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