SO what have been up to. Lots of nothing COVID sent me into a huge mess of depression and anxiety that I have slowly been getting through thanks to medication. The medications have made me a much better mom and wife.
We spent a week with Lee's family at his family reunion last week. There was so many good fun times but there was also some frustration where Lee and I felt like we were the built in babysitters and people kept just leaving their children with us. I tried to be compassionate but sometimes it is hard. We are thankful for all the great memories we had, older kids got to go to Lagoon with their cousins which was fabulous despite snide comments about how much we make and what we can afford. We are thankful for Lee's brother and family hosting and always for the generosity of Lee's dad and Gina. And Lee's cousin took amazing pictures
Jake got his permit and overall isn't such a bad driver just inexperienced.
Marching band sort of kind of was cancelled. They are going to do a half time show but no marching. But for now cross country is a go but starting late.
High School will be a spilt schedule which will be different and they are going to make every effort to keep households together. I don;t envy teachers or counselors who are taking on teaching this year.
I am not doing well with unknown or limbo. But I feel strongly in 6 months we will be in a much better place with COVID and since we are already almost six months in ...WE CAN DO THIS.
I have been working so much which has been good and bad, Student loans are dropping at the rate of $2000-2500 a month but it has been draining and we haven't had to pay interest which may or may not last until the end of the year...It will last until at least October.
All in all COVID has more positve then negative. Lots more family time and more money. But I may feel much differently in six months. Much easier to enjoy being at home when we can get out and ride bikes every night.
Words can not expressed the range of emotions I am feeling at the moment. One week ago we had it all planned out. Then Covid happened. And the whole world was suddenly on hold. Kids had school Monday but then have been out for ten days and are scheduled to return on the 20th of April. However most people think that is unlikely. My heart is breaking for graduating seniors. We cancelled our trip to Zion which may have happened any way because it was calling for snow. I hope we will rise from this stronger but right now I feel like curling up in a ball and crying. Lee now has work at home options since we have not been put on "lockdown" at this point although several other areas and cities across the county including a few in Idaho have been. I try and look for the good. Healthy kids, good weather, lots of projects we put off being completed. But some moments it feels like we are missing on so much. We did church at ho...
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