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2015

I spent 2015 focusing on me.  Getting me healthier emotionally, physically and mentally.  After years of being drained with graduate school, three miscarriages, two kids in a less then 18 months in addition to the two I already had, dad's battle with cancer and then losing the battle.  Then there was a collicly baby.  Nearly a decade of CPS.  I wasn't healthy in so many ways.

This year in some ways was hard.  Really hard.  Luke getting ran over and the strain it was on the family was the hardest thing.  But in most ways this year  was amazing.  By focusing on me and my needs I was better able to meet the needs of others.  But the year was not with out battle scars.  It was not with out pain and some huge growing experiences.  But at the end of 2015 I am mentally in such a better place.  I am physically stronger then I have been in years.  I have a better relationship with my kids and spouse.  I have focused on those relationships that are true friendships and limited contact with those people who don't support me. I feel more spiritual and  more empowered.  

I didn't just survive this year I really feel like I focused and I lived this year.  There were so many adventures that we did. And so many more I want to do. 

I head into 2016 feeling on top of the world.  We have been blessed this year and I have felt the presence of angels more times then I can count.  We have been blessed with family and friends.  We cried we laughed.  We got to our breaking point and came back.  We came a few inches from losing our baby. We have made mistakes and have done some stuff right.   

With the end of 2015 a few hours away I feel this is has been a great year.  

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