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Biggest Fear as a Child

What was your biggest fear as a child?  Do you still have it today?  If it went away, when did your feelings change?

My biggest fear as a child is the fear of being accepted.  I always feared I would say the wrong thing or do the wrong thing and people would not accept me.  I spent alot of time not doing what I wanted to do because of this. 

I still struggle with this as an adult/  However, especially this last year I realized I am who I am and I need to be true to myself.  This year there have been relationships that have been severely damaged because I wasn't true to myself for all too long and then when I was authentic the person didn't accept me for who I am.   I take partial responsibilty for not being real but it was hard when they didn't want to accept me for me. 

I think for me this is a  life long process.  To continue to be real if people don't want to be friends with me because of that then that is on them not me. 



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