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What a day

Today was a crazy day.  Luke was up at fie which may have been doable if I didn't go to bed at one.  He laid with is until 6:30 when I woke the kids up but he was so restless neither one of is really slept. Then I laid him back down around seven and Andrew fell asleep with me until nine which is way later then we ever sleep.  Then it was rushing around running errands.  Andrew refused to nap.  Which means minimal cleaning because I kept putting him in bed.  I got six letters from insurance stating they were refusing to pay six bills.  So an hour later and several phone calls only to be told I have to wait several months to figure it out.  The insurance adjuster didn't respond to our request o settle which may be for the best.

Work was crazy I was swore at and hit on.  I was lied to.  I came home emotionally drained.  But the night went quickly and I am glad to be home watching tv and trying not to cry.  After my previous breakdown today I would say sometimes all you can do is cry.

Somedays the realization hits me that I proved my point.  That some relationships are one sided and if I don't reach out then there is no communication because the other person doesn't bother to think about us.  Maybe some time in the future that will change but for now I am not getting my hopes up.


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