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This weekend I went to McCall with some of the most spiritual and fun women for a leadership training for MOPS.  It was fun and exhausting and really great.  Part of wishes I would have gone up Friday but part of me is glad I waited.  As I listened to these women's stories I was in awe of them.  They are strong and are truly great leaders.I feel honored to serve with them for the next year

When I was gone Lee cleaned the garage.  So I can almost park my car in there. And I think if we have six motorcycle at our house next Saturday night most of them will fit.

Lee's cousin died over the weekend and so Lee is going to Pocatello on Friday for services instead of riding to his dad's house.  I think it will work out okay.  Then they are all meeting up Saturday in Yellowstone and I am totally jealous.  I tried to find a hotel or cabin that was reasonable so we could go this weekend as well but instead the kids are doing a triatholon. Because I couldn't find a hotel plus I am working Friday day.  I have mixed emotions about not going to Pocatello.  I wanted to go but Lee going will be support enough for the family. 

Victoria left Monday.  I really miss her. She went with my mom to the cabin with my neice.  My mom called yesterday and said the girls were having a great time.  She will be home Thursday when I am at work so I won't see her until Friday.  :(.  So not ready for the kids to be off having adventures with out us.

I am getting rid of all my baby stuff. We aren't using it and I know somebody who could use it.  It has taken a year but I really firmly feel our family is complete.  I don't want more kids, physically and emotionally I am not sure how another pregnancy would go.  They have gotten worse and worse with each one. Besides I am ready to move pass the baby stage.  Or maybe just the Luke baby stage.  Lee says that he wouldn't mind another but he doesn't want me to be pregnant ever and he told me he doesn't really like the delivery part.  So if the stork drops a baby by he would be just fine. 

I had a long conversation with a friend who although she has never been where I have been she was really able to empathize with me and it felt good that she was able to support me. 

I just asked Lee if this week had a reset button.  It isn't anything major just lots of minor stuff.  Pretty sure the water pump is out in the van.  Which means I can not drive it and Lee will be gone next week which is good and bad because he won't need his car but I will have to deal with car repairs without him. 

I made some progress on getting rid of some stuff yesterday.  I dumped all the stuff from grad school.  After four years I haven't even looked at it.  I also got rid of a dress that I was emotionally attached to but I will never ever wear again. 

It has taken me four days to write this post.  Lee leaves tomorrow.  Not sure how the suit is going to work on the motorcycle.  I am so glad he gets to go and although I wanted to go it will be fine that I am not.    Victoria made it home.  Had a blast.  Glad she got to go. 

Decided we are going camping the first full weekend in August.  The only weekend we can go in August.  I may try and go again in September. 

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