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Nothing is forever

This weekend was rough.  My BFF from high school's mom died on Saturday morning.  We had grown apart over the years but our moms had become super close.  I found out on facebook when I called my mom she said she had already heard.  I started to cry.  This woman and her husband were so amazing when my dad was ill.  They came over nearly every day he was in the hospital and after he got home.  Their family flew my parents to the cabin for one final visit before my dad died.  They sat and would talk to my dad even when he was so delusional.  I cried Jake cried.  My heart is breaking for the family.  It was sudden and then it wasn't.  So close to Christmas.  My mother said she just didn't know what she was going to do with out her.  Life will go on.  But I know from experience it goes on but it is never the same.  There is still this aching for the loved one.   My mom has been asked to not only pray at the service but to dress her friend as well.  I feel for my mom seems like so much pressure right before Christmas.  But she seems to be doing okay. 

Meanwhile my house is a mess and my Christmas/birthday shopping isn't done.  And I am getting stressed and I am not sure how we are going to get it all done.  It still doesn't feel like Christmas.  Maybe snow will come soon.  DEEP BREATH!!!  It will all be okay. 

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