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Halloween Weekend

This weekend was tough. Really tough.  Thursday I went to dad's grave.  I am not sure why I go especially with the little boys.  Luke was great Andrew wanted to run to the water fall on the other side of the "street" from the grave.  But I did get some pictures taken for BillionGraves so all was not lost.  Friday Jake had a project due so as much as I wanted to go home and have a good cry after the cemetery I picked Jake up from school and we went to the Hobby store to pick out some stuff for his project.  Then we worked on his project most of the rest of the day.  I did take Victoria shopping for purple hair dye and purple eye shadow.

Friday was Haloween. My cousin posted on Facebook that she was thinking of us.  My BFF sent me a text saying she hoped I could make some good memories.  We got together at my sisters for trick or treating.  Kids were great and had fun.  Victoria stayed the night with her cousin and I don't think they slept enough.

Saturday was scouting for food (round 1) Lee decided to do a huge reorganization project.  Both Lee and I got naps.  We do some decluttering had date night and got a new crock pot since mine was dropped on the floor and the insert shattered right as I was getting ready to get the babysitter.

Sunday was insane.  Lee had two meetings and taught Elder's Quorum.  Which means I had to take Luke to my primary class.  Kids were crazy and restless.  But the boys in my class LOVE Luke.  So they love it when he comes.  Jake made Apple Crisp with very minimal help.  Lee made dinner.   My ex Brother in Law posted on his Facebook about how much he missed Dad.  Sweet he did that.  He was always fond of my dad.  Also yesterday I came across Dad's funeral program.  I had forgotten we put the obituary on the back.  As I read through that I felt it all ended too quickly that somehow we all got shorted by not having dad here. 

While I write it all out the weekend had some highs but it just felt blah.   Time heals I am sure.  But doesn't change the fact I will miss him always.

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