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October will be tough

Maybe it will get better as the years past maybe it won't.  October last year was so difficult.  I was trying to spent as much time with dad as possible while working full time while being pregnant while dealing with three kids.  And two kids who were in baseball and dance at the time. Since my pregnancies come with throwing up all the time the last one came with sciatica it was tough.  And after the horrible October my dad died on the last day of the month.  It didn't seem fair still doesn't  This year I just want to fast forward through it all.  Seems reasonable.

So because I am going to need it more then others I am going to every day come up with something I am grateful for in the month of October.  So I am going to try.   Despite all the craziness life has been good to us and after Lee's FHE on being grateful I am going to make an effort.

I met Lee for lunch and I told him that I was really emotional today.  His comment "I can't imagine why."  Followed by "This whole month will be tough."  Tears for having a husband that knows me all to well.   

Lets see how this goes.  

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