I have been getting on a good night six hours of sleep but it is interrupted on a bad night it is closer to four. Luke has decided sleeping is something that he longer wants to do at night. He goes down fine but then at 2 is awake and then things a few hours of being held is ideal and then he will fall back asleep around 4-430. I have been on the verge of a mental breakdown for the past couple of weeks. There is other reasons for this besides just lack of sleep but that is making it worse. Today after my mom's group both boys crashed at the same time and I got a 2.5 hours nap. It was great. The only reason I finally got out of bed was because I heard "mom" "mom" "mooooom" coming from Andrew's crib. I really could have slept another hour or more. But I will take what I can get and it was fabulous. Naps are great.
L:ong story short I came across something that made we want to add back to this. Not sure why but hwere we go. Life is constantly chaning and I feel so mnuch surround bu death lately. Not diredctly although I fee like that is coming but more just heartbreak for so many around me. Yesterday Victoria quailfied for state. It was an answer to a prayer. I prayed she would qualify and felt strongly she would. As we left her away at the meet she was certain as were we that she hadn't qualified and then the clouds parted and she will be able to run. She told me she prayed that she would have a good last high school race. and her last race was not grea. There were tears. And rears when she called me to tell me she qualified. So rad trip to ther side of teh state next weekend Wednesday Jake is going through the temple. So many mixed feelings for so many reasons. I shouldn't expect people to show up but sometimes it is just so hard when my mom is the only "church...
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