Why start the month out with Luke aka Puke? Because one year ago today I had an ultrasound that told us Luke was a boy. I cried. I went over to my parents and told them and cried some more. I was so disappointed. I wanted another girl so badly. I was bitter the rest of the pregnancy and even months after Luke was born. I think that had to do some with everything else going on. Luke has been a trial since he was born. He cried non stop for the first four months or so it seemed. He wouldn't sleep some nights I was up four to five times with him. He has so hard to deal with it. Then one day it slowed down. He is still the grouchiest out of the four. But he is getting better.
Then one day I didn't think about how I didn't have two girls any more. I love my little boys. I love how Luke laughs at Andrew I love how he is so active and happy during the day. I love how he is adventurous. I love his smile and how he struggles to smile and keep balance. I love his laugh. I love that he is mine. I love that I have two sets of kids. I love that he is starting to snuggle more something he hasn't done much of/
I love how although Luke was not planned how he came at the perfect time. Three months to the day after I buried my father. I love how he healed my heart and gave me something to focus on. Luke was the reason I quit my job at the state. Without him I would probably still be there. Without Luke life would be very different and not for the better. Sure I would be sleeping (lots) more. But Andrew wouldn't have a play mate when the older kids are at school. We would have all missed out on something. A very something.
So for Day 1 I am grateful for Pukey Puke. :)
Then one day I didn't think about how I didn't have two girls any more. I love my little boys. I love how Luke laughs at Andrew I love how he is so active and happy during the day. I love how he is adventurous. I love his smile and how he struggles to smile and keep balance. I love his laugh. I love that he is mine. I love that I have two sets of kids. I love that he is starting to snuggle more something he hasn't done much of/
I love how although Luke was not planned how he came at the perfect time. Three months to the day after I buried my father. I love how he healed my heart and gave me something to focus on. Luke was the reason I quit my job at the state. Without him I would probably still be there. Without Luke life would be very different and not for the better. Sure I would be sleeping (lots) more. But Andrew wouldn't have a play mate when the older kids are at school. We would have all missed out on something. A very something.
So for Day 1 I am grateful for Pukey Puke. :)
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