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Feeling sort of kind bad

I was trying to get to Kamiah so the kids could say good bye to their cousin.  Not going to happen for lots of reasons.  But it was more thing that I was stressing about that I didn't have time for.  So while I kind of feel bad I kind of feel relief as well.  We already have two trips planned in July and the kids have three.  Plus I work four days.  Lee works all the time and I honestly wasn't up for driving all the way there with all the kids.  Super excited for the 10th.  I am taking Victoria and the little boys for a couple of nights to visit a family that I assisted with the adoption of their three girls.  It was an amazing experience and they have allowed me to continue to be a part of their lives.  Jake is going with my mom to the cabin.  We will be home for not quite a week and then there will be a family wedding and then a few days after that we will be in McCall for five days.  Then it will be August.  We are hoping/planning a trip to Utah in August.  My mom said she would go with me if Lee can't.  Soccer starts the 25th of August and Dance the 18th.  School starts back the 25th.  Crazy crazy.  Then Lee's bike trip is the first week in September and I am going to Phoenix sometime in October.

I have a job interview tomorrow that I think will be a good thing for us.  I applied for another job but I don't have quite the warm fuzzy feeling about that one. But we will see how it all plays out.   {Plus who knows if I will even get the job.  I hope so but really who knows? 

Eight months ago today dad died.  Crazy how it seems like a life time ago yet it also seems like just yesterday.  The past eight months have really showed me who I can count on and who I can't.  Such is life.  


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