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Tripping

I should be sleeping.  Not sure why I am not.  I just spent hours looking at hotels for my trip.  Still not sure I am going.  Lee thinks I should.  Lots of nice hotels with expensive price tags.  hotels are so pricy and I am not sure why. Probably because they can be. I could probably get away with only one night but I think I am probably going to book 3.  Two nights in Portland and one in Seattle.    I told Lee I was going to take the life insurance money and use it for the trip.  He said it had to be used on something fun.  Okay then I won't take it.  Lee at this point has talked me out of renting a car.  If it was just for a week I would do it but the cost for the days I am going to be gone is for two weeks.  I need to make this trip not about me but about my sister in law and my BFF.  I hate she is moving. 

I was telling somebody that I did stuff to annoy people and she said that wasn't helpful.  But it isn't so much that I do stuff to annoy but I no longer feel the need to hide who I am.  Okay I do hide a little bit.  Depending on the person I am talking to.  We were specifically talking about formula feeding.   I was telling some people that Luke was getting formula on occasion but really that isnt totally true.  Or maybe it is.  Honestly I don't keep track as much as maybe I should.  He is healthy and finally after all this time becoming a much happier baby.  Plus he is just so adorable.

I am stressing about the surgery.  Yet another thing I am sure people think we should not be doing. 

It was an amazingly fun weekend.  We went zip lining Lee and I went and played disc golf and out to dinner.  Lee did a ton on cleaning out the garage today while I was at work.  I worked all weekend.  It was good despite the crazy stuff that went on.  Unexpected death is hard.  Telling a family about it is super difficult.  All you can say is sorry and what can I do to help.

Already 1:30 should be a good time to go to bed. 

I wanted to a blog about May.  Maybe when I am spending hours in the waiting room Wednesday.

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