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Friday
I am feeling very Pinteresty today.  Yes that is a word.  (If only in my world)  So today I made fabric softener sheets with sponges.  They worked.  YEA!!!  I also made pizza dough for dinner and made oatmeal cookies.  Plus I went to Fred Meyer and WalMart with the little boys.  I changed what seems like a thousand diapers. 

I never finish this post yesterday so here is the rest of it. 

Lee and I are trying to make some hard decisions and I don't want to.  I don't want to do what I know what I need to do,  Stupid I know so I am stalling until the last possible moment. 

I am taking the kids to the cabin in three weeks for three days.  All four of them without Lee.  My mom is going. Worried about how it will turn out but it should be fine.  I haven't been out of town since the beach in July.  So unlike me.  Okay I did take a 48 hour trip in early September to Seattle when my friend was released from the hospital. 

I am struggling with PPD,    I did with Jake not the middle two but I figured with having another winter baby less then four months after losing my dad and all the health issues I had I knew there was a good chance I would. Having a grouchy baby doesn't help. I need some sun.  Wishing we were going somewhere warm and sunny for Spring Break but I will take whatever I can get. 

There was way more I was going to write,  We started giving Luke formula which several people in my life have called "poison" or "crap".  We did what we thought was best.  I am still nursing but I struggle for several reason and so we give Luke a few bottles a day.  Most people don't care but several people have felt the need to tell us how we are doing it wrong.  Okay Vent over! 

Jake started Lacrosse.  I am excited to see a game in a few weeks.  He says he is enjoying it.  Maybe he finally found his sport. 

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