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Outside looking in

Lee took the older kids to church and Andrew is napping.  I have been meaning to post for a while but just haven't.

Lately I have felt like an outsider.  Not sure if it is me or the situation.  Seems like everything I do somebody thinks is a bad idea.  I have decided to stay silent on some family situations and maybe that is why I feel like I do.  Some of it was just bad timing and some of it I just feel really judged but that could be in part because I am super sensitive.  It is sad to me because I saw things turning out differently.

The pain is still there and last night was one of the worst nights.  I can't sleep.  Just another month.  Lee is doing everything he can to help and I know he will be a big help once the baby arrives.  But there are just something he can't fix.






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