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Christmas

It is 11 on Christmas night.  What a great day full of family and love.  Kids loved their gifts.  My mother gave us a portion of my dad's life insurance money which she said dad would have wanted us to have which is something I can see him saying.  But my mother was way more generous then she needed to be.  She set aside money for the headstone.  My sister announced she is going to Vegas and getting married.  We all knew about Vegas but now the trip makes more sense.  She picked my fathers birthday as her wedding day which I think is fabulous.  

In other news...I didn't feel the loss I thought I would today.  I love and miss my dad everyday.  But I know his life goes on just somewhere different.  

50 days left of this pregnancy.  My plan was to induce on the 13th now not so sure that will happen.  I was measuring a week ahead and I think I have decided to push the induction date back a few days. Lee has not voiced an opinion.  Plus tonight I could not move with out horrible pain.  I did too much over the last few Days it caught up with me.  Still discussing names... I think we have it down to three or four we like well I like.  

I have pics on the camera I will probably post :). 

Good night!

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