Normally I don't like to complain about pregnancy. But this time I am so ready to be done. Between throwing up, pain all the time and heart burn I am ready to be done. This pregnancy has been way more trying then my others. I haven't really bonded like I have in the past. Plus emotionally I have struggled. I don't want four kids I never did. I was done at three. I am not ready for the comments. I am hoping I feel differently when the baby comes. I am pretty sure unless the baby comes early I will induce. There are so many reasons for this. I know people disagree but at this point I don't care.
L:ong story short I came across something that made we want to add back to this. Not sure why but hwere we go. Life is constantly chaning and I feel so mnuch surround bu death lately. Not diredctly although I fee like that is coming but more just heartbreak for so many around me. Yesterday Victoria quailfied for state. It was an answer to a prayer. I prayed she would qualify and felt strongly she would. As we left her away at the meet she was certain as were we that she hadn't qualified and then the clouds parted and she will be able to run. She told me she prayed that she would have a good last high school race. and her last race was not grea. There were tears. And rears when she called me to tell me she qualified. So rad trip to ther side of teh state next weekend Wednesday Jake is going through the temple. So many mixed feelings for so many reasons. I shouldn't expect people to show up but sometimes it is just so hard when my mom is the only "church...
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