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I just shouldn't care

So I have wanted to write this post for a week now and I think I am just going to do it.  A few weeks ago I had a really difficult week.  Pregnancy didn't help the situation.  But I reached out to two people and I got shut down both times.  One time the person asked I was was doing and I told them sad and lonely and they didn't even respond.  

I am not even sure how to handle the situation.  I am so grateful for my parents who so often are there for me and my family.  I know I need to focus on the positive but when people who are family chose not be there for me I struggle. Especially when I reach out which is something hard for me to do. I have an amazing friend who really helped me out over the past few weeks.  In fact she will be there a few days/weeks after the baby arrives to help me.  She is so amazing!  Did I just say that?

I didn't even bother to tell Lee because he will just tell me that is just how they are.  I know that is just how they are but it is still hard at times. 

I wonder if there is a limit to how much Olympics one person can watch.  Because I am pretty sure I am way past what any one person should watch. 

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