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My friend comes tomorrow.  Lee is home on Saturday,  Jake is giving a talk on Sunday and kids are leaving Wednesday for four days with their grandparents at the cabin. Thursday is parent's meeting for football.   I am hoping for a date next week but with Lee working in will be a very short one. 

Meanwhile I am trying to drink enough water.  Another test today to make sure fluid levels are high enough.

Today we will clean and go to my mom's for swimming and then back for cleaning.  I am making bread and I have managed two batches of wash today.

Lee is hiking tomorrow.  Honestly it was the one thing I was hoping they would not get to.  It is a pretty intense hike.  I am so glad he is having a good time.  I am glad he has these trips. I am glad he has a week to get away from real life.    Next year when he is gone I hope to head to Washington for a few days.  But we will see how that goes.  Maybe we will go to my parents cabin instead.  I like to keep my options open.  ;)  As long as we get to spend a week at the beach next year I will be good.  

We are nowhere ready for this baby. We are nowhere close to picking out a name.  But he is showing up regardless on what we are ready for.  People keep asking if I am ready to be done.  The short answer is no.  The long answer is much more complicated.  After four years of trying to get this baby here why would I want to rush through what quite possible may be my last pregnancy.  After four years and three miscarriages I feel like it is such a miracle to have stayed pregnant as long as I have.  





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