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You will never get it...

It took nearly a year to get to where I am.  I still struggle with certain things and I have only opened up to one person in real life and several on the internet.  It is a very lonley path to go down especially with nobody to go down the road with you. 

I don't think there is anything wrong with questions if those questions have the intent of learning more.  Which is all I was trying to do.  I am still questioning still wandering but for now here we are.  For now we are doing what we are doing although sometimes it seems like we are going through the motions. 

I am not bitter although I would have done things way differently.  I wish I had somebody to open up to in real life.  But there just isn't. 

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