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The green eyed monster

I have been struggling with envy lately.  I know that we have a ton of good things going on in our lives but there are few major things that we have not been able to accomplish.  After a melt down tonight we still have no more answers then before.  But this is not where I want to be.  I would be so much easier if every time I signed on to facebook I was smacked in the face with family members having what we want what we feel would be best in the end.  But instead we are faced with what we have.  Maybe this is my lesson in patience. My lesson in trust. I want to be done with lessons.

Speaking of I have taken on a project.  Should be fun.  If it works out there will be pictures.

A trip will do me good.  Sitting on the couch of my BFF usually puts things in perspective for me.  Watching her struggles make mine seems so small and insignificant. 

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