As soon as I am done with school I am going to make a decision that will change my life. It will seriously change everything about my life. But I keep having second thoughts about leaving. What will it do to the kids? To Lee? Does it really matter as long as I am doing what is best for me? If it is best for me then I think I will do it. Doing what is best for me is really best for the whole family. I am struggling with what to do. I am sure it will come to me once my mind is clearer. I know some people will be supportive yet there will be those who will judge and think I should stay. After all stability is so important. I really wish things would have turned out differently but they didn't.
L:ong story short I came across something that made we want to add back to this. Not sure why but hwere we go. Life is constantly chaning and I feel so mnuch surround bu death lately. Not diredctly although I fee like that is coming but more just heartbreak for so many around me. Yesterday Victoria quailfied for state. It was an answer to a prayer. I prayed she would qualify and felt strongly she would. As we left her away at the meet she was certain as were we that she hadn't qualified and then the clouds parted and she will be able to run. She told me she prayed that she would have a good last high school race. and her last race was not grea. There were tears. And rears when she called me to tell me she qualified. So rad trip to ther side of teh state next weekend Wednesday Jake is going through the temple. So many mixed feelings for so many reasons. I shouldn't expect people to show up but sometimes it is just so hard when my mom is the only "church...
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