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On Call Ramblings

I finally got the last of the invites done.  Just one more week.

I have the feeling I am being used.  Lee feels the same way so it isn't of those crazy me moments.  They more I think about it the more it is driving me insane.  I am not even sure that I can be nice about it.  I am sure that outsiders would say this is a irrational thought process.  I need to check in with my rational friends and family to gain a better perspective. 

I was invited to a baptism on Saturday night for one of my favorite former foster girls.  I just adore these three girls but it is 45 minutes away and Lee is home only on the weekends it is such a hard call.  I think I will see how the day goes before making a decision. 

My in-laws came by briefly tonight.  Always nice to see them even if it was for less then an hour.  We will see them in a week. There are several job postings for MSW.  I can't wait until September so I can start applying. I am ready for a change. 

I am on call tonight.  I really think that people don't really understand on-call.  I am at home.  Not sitting in an office waiting for your call at one in the morning to report something that you are going to rereport tomorrow to the worker. 

Lee comes home tomorrow I am thinking hiking is out due to the rain/snow combo predicted.  I will take that over flooding and tornadoes any day. 

Trying to decide if I should sleep in tomorrow or just deal with the lack of sleep and go to bed early tomorrow.  Yea that won't happen because I am going out shopping with my tomorrow.  I guess that means that just under five hours of sleep is all for tonight. 

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