So not surprising but still disappointing is how I would describe today. Things aren't getting better. I am so hurt by the whole situation and I think others are too. I am just so ready to be done with all of it. I sometimes wish I could just cut off contact with certain people. Somebody asked how I was doing and then moments later left the conversation. If you really cared you have have lasted more then 30 seconds after my response. You would know part of the issue was you. But you don't know or care because everything is all about you. It has been the same things for years. I am figuring out that people never change. Never really change. Sure they can fake it for a while but after a while they go back to who they really are. I wish I could stop thinking there is really something out there. Stop thinking there is somebody out there. It is all so complicated and hard to explain. How do I explain that the issue is mine not yours with out hurting feelings. With out sounding like a total brat. I really want to move on but then what?
The governor came out on Wednesday and ordered a lock down. It seems like a good idea and will not changed our lives all that much. We did decided that we would only go to the grocery store once a week we went last Friday. We will go tomorrow which means it will be nine days. Kids haven't been in a store in weeks. Lots of time in the garden and working on yard projects. It has been good and bad. More family time and less running around. But lack of structure over the past two weeks has been tough. Tomorrow would be the day the kids start back to school. It is likely they won't be going back at all this year. Victoria will be the most effected. No eighth grade graduation likely The school could decide to bring back just eighth and 12th graders. Either way they are all out until 4/20. "distance learning" will start for the kids on 4/13. Which is another reason I think they will end the schoo...
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