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Friends and Family

Lee and I are in Washington visiting friends. We have really great friends.  Last night we went out to dinner and a movie with just the adults.  Great time.  I think the only time we ever go out with another couple is when we come up here.  On our way to dinner I got some bad news regarding a good friend.  She was in the hospital over the weekend.  This friend has some major major chronic life threatening stuff going on.  She was doing well for a quite a while and then around Thanksgiving it all fell apart.  She still hasn't been able to get back to where she was before Thanksgiving and is now dealing with the fact that she may never be where she was before.

I have a three day weekend well actually four.  Although I may go into tomorrow to make some hours as well as working on some school things.  I sometimes forget just how blessed I am. I am getting paid to sit here on my laptop and watch my children play games.  Life is good.

I made contact with somebody in Lee's family who I haven't spoken to in years.  Somethings happened and since I did not respond the way this person wanted then she pretty much cut me out.  I have reached out a few times but all with the same response.This person person would either ignore me or send me a two line email explaining why she could not have contact with me.  I understand that she was hurt but I did not cause that pain.  But I failed to cut people out of my life who had harmed her so she said she could not continue to have a relationship with me.  I am pretty sure that she is still hurt and that we will never have the relationship that we could have had. 
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