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Emotions and Changes

This week has been so emotional.  Between work and news of horrible horrible things happening.  Then we got news that we knew was coming which was hard to handle but not as hard as in the past.  Plus the first chapter of my thesis was due today and I really struggled with it.  I am not sure what direction I want take it.  But then tonight came news that made me rethink things. Somebody received some horrible awful news.  My heart is breaking for them.  My life just isn't so bad.
This week I have hugged my kids a little tighter and a little longer at night.   I love my kids and my husband.  I don't understand why people do what they do.  Why do people hurt the innocent? Plus I am really thinking some major changes in my life.  Lee is supportive of them but due some financial stuff I am not sure that I can do them right now.  But I am hoping by graduation then we will be able to make some big changes.  Change can be so very scary but that is how we grow. 
Sometimes we need to put faith in God and just leap. 

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  1. profunditeaSunday, February 06, 2011

    Have you ever read "Loving What Is" By Byron Katie? That book helped me understand why people are so horrible to each other. Its never an excuse, but having the wisdom to understand the entire situation brought me some peace.

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  2. NatalieTuesday, February 08, 2011

    I didn't know you read my crazy ramblings. I will have to read it over school break. Thanks!

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