Had an experience yesterday that shook me to the core. For a moment (okay more then a moment) I thought that I was losing somebody very close to me. Things are looking up today although still not where they should be. For last night the only thing that mattered was life or death. It seems so minor that Lee could not find the remote or that I forgot to shut the garage door. People mattered not things. Laughter hurt my ears. It is so weird to say that and even odder to go through that experience. Our mortality was called into question and I was reminded yet again that we have not prepared in the event of both Lee and I dying. Okay we have partially but the big questions have not been written down.
L:ong story short I came across something that made we want to add back to this. Not sure why but hwere we go. Life is constantly chaning and I feel so mnuch surround bu death lately. Not diredctly although I fee like that is coming but more just heartbreak for so many around me. Yesterday Victoria quailfied for state. It was an answer to a prayer. I prayed she would qualify and felt strongly she would. As we left her away at the meet she was certain as were we that she hadn't qualified and then the clouds parted and she will be able to run. She told me she prayed that she would have a good last high school race. and her last race was not grea. There were tears. And rears when she called me to tell me she qualified. So rad trip to ther side of teh state next weekend Wednesday Jake is going through the temple. So many mixed feelings for so many reasons. I shouldn't expect people to show up but sometimes it is just so hard when my mom is the only "church...
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