Had an experience yesterday that shook me to the core. For a moment (okay more then a moment) I thought that I was losing somebody very close to me. Things are looking up today although still not where they should be. For last night the only thing that mattered was life or death. It seems so minor that Lee could not find the remote or that I forgot to shut the garage door. People mattered not things. Laughter hurt my ears. It is so weird to say that and even odder to go through that experience. Our mortality was called into question and I was reminded yet again that we have not prepared in the event of both Lee and I dying. Okay we have partially but the big questions have not been written down.
This has been a tough week. I worked some extra hours which were only five hour shifts but were still were time away from the kids. Kids are at their breaking point and wether or not they know it they need schedules and some stablness. School starts Tuesday and comments about how people hope my kids dont kill their teachers with COVID is neither helpful or accurate. Plus we had a budget meeting after months of no meetings. In which we found out that we had once again over spent in August. Which could have been stopped if we would have known earlier in the month. I sent $1500 to student loans. Andrew turned eight yesterday and I am so thankful for him. He is become such a deep thinker and asks these amazing questions that I don't always have the answers to. The meds have helped slow him down but he is still crazy Andrew. We upped the medications and it was like he was on speed. He couldn't sleep and was kind of zombie like. Then there has been a few moments wher
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