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2017 The real story

Here is the 2017 story that you won't get on facebook or the Christmas letter. 

2017 totally rocked me to my core.

Mormonism is still a hard thing for me.  If people want to know what I believe I will gladly tell them but nobody ever asks and I never volunteer.

Raising preteens can be tough.  Raising a three year old who struggles with people is overwhelming.

I spend much of the year wondering if I am doing it all right. News flash I am not.

People died, my heart was broken for those left behind.  Relationships came to a breaking point and I am not sure if they will ever go back together.

Marriage can be so hard.  Our marriage has been pulled and pushed to the brink of breaking.

But I am more confident and more at peace then I have been in a while.  I know I am on the right path for me at the moment.

We have always had enough for our needs and some of our wants. 

We were able to buy a new van that I have wanted for a while. 

We were able to take some really nice vacations.  We got to spend some time with some extended family which doesn't happen very often. 

Financially,  spiritually and emotionally I feel pushed to my breaking point.  But I didn't break I am still here.




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