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Day 3-Staying at home

Staying at home has been great.  Besides the fact I was pretty sure we couldn't find anybody who could handle Luke full time until he was about six months old I have for the most part enjoyed it.  It is crazy most the time and I have much higher expectations of myself then Lee does.  But some how at the end of the day the kids are alive and the house is still standing and most the time there is dinner on the table.  I have the expectation that it is the role of the stay at home parent to maintain a clean home and cook dinner.  Some days I fail but most days the house is pretty clean. 

I love seeing little moments with the little boys and being there to run a forgotten lunch to the older kids.  I love that the kids can do after school things that they weren't able to do before.  And that I am home when they walk through the door after school.  I love that dinner inst so rushed although some nights it is due to soccer and/or dance and/or scouts.

 It is nice not having to decide who has less important stuff to do at work when one of the kids are sick.  Or having to leave work early for well baby checks.  I don't have to text the babysitter asking if it is okay she keeps the kids later then planned when court is running late.  Jake doesn't come home alone. 

Being home for my kids has been a blessing and one I am embracing because I won't pretend that it will be like this forever.  I like to hope it will and we are planning for it but plans change. 

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