Today was draining. One of those days where you wish you could just redo them. Our family has been going through a trial which at this time I am going to keep private. It started in July we figured it was going better and now clear that it isn't going better. I am not sure if it ever will. This is in addition to the cancer. We are fighting through it but it appears to be a losing battle and I just don't have the energy to care any more. Yes that makes me a horrible person but I really need to focus energy on good happy things.
L:ong story short I came across something that made we want to add back to this. Not sure why but hwere we go. Life is constantly chaning and I feel so mnuch surround bu death lately. Not diredctly although I fee like that is coming but more just heartbreak for so many around me. Yesterday Victoria quailfied for state. It was an answer to a prayer. I prayed she would qualify and felt strongly she would. As we left her away at the meet she was certain as were we that she hadn't qualified and then the clouds parted and she will be able to run. She told me she prayed that she would have a good last high school race. and her last race was not grea. There were tears. And rears when she called me to tell me she qualified. So rad trip to ther side of teh state next weekend Wednesday Jake is going through the temple. So many mixed feelings for so many reasons. I shouldn't expect people to show up but sometimes it is just so hard when my mom is the only "church...
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