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Fish out of water

I did something I have only done one other time in my life.  I called the temple and had a name put in there.  I have put names when I have gone but that was not an option today.  There was a peace after I did that.  Not sure it will do any good but we will know after tomorrow. 

We are leaving tomorrow for Utah which will start a crazy two-three weeks.  Not sure I am ready for all the things that are going to happen.  But they are going to happen whether or not I am ready. 

I got an email from my sister in law today.  I really wish people would not tell me things that they don't want other people to know.  It will come out I am sure but why tell me when I am not the person who will be effected. 

Maybe it is this pregnancy but I am feeling really out of place when it comes to family.  I wish I could be more specific but since I know family reads this then I am feel like I can't really say everything I want to say. 

I guess I should go pack and pray that all goes well tomorrow and that we have answer one way or another.

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