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Are we excited?

People love to ask if we are excited about another baby and if we are excited we are having a boy.  Ummmm....Yes is the most political correct answer.  Although truthfully we are not over the moon excited,  I am still a little bitter that four years to the month that we decided we wanted a third baby we are finally getting him.  I am still holding my breath that this pregnancy will go full term. And well Lee doesn't get excited until after the baby is born.  He never has.  And that is fine.  He doesn't need to. 

So although we say yes and smile when people ask.  The truth is we won't be excited until we have a healthy baby in our arms.  Also we really didn't care if it was a boy or a girl. We really didn't  People say things like well you already have one of each so it shouldn't matter.  But it does matter and I can't explain on here right now but the sex of the baby drastically impacts my decision to have or not have another baby.  Although we clearly have no control over that. 

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