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Validation in the Strangest Places

I got an i-phone.  I love it.  When I explained to Lee why I felt that I needed one.  He said okay.  I don't feel obligated to go into the reasons but I feel as though it is something that will be a good thing.  

I finally got some validation that I wasn't looking for on Thanksgiving.  It came in the strangest way. But it made me feel better that some people see a family member the same way I do.  That it doesn't matter how hard I try it will never make up for what has happened.  But not living in the same town helps with the situation.

I am looking forward to a trip to Utah.  It will be a good time I am sure.  Lee is going down a day ahead which means the kids and I are driving alone.  I have checked the weather reports and it looks like clear roads there.  I am not so worried about on the way back because I will have Lee with me.  

Still waiting for the go ahead to start my new job.  Maybe this week will bring some answers. 

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